Amber may be… a pregnant student

As of right now I’m 12 weeks pregnant, a senior in college, a housekeeper (not my own house), a wife, a writer for the school newspaper, and a major slacker!

It is so hard to go to school and be pregnant at the same time. Don’t take this blog post as defeat, by no means is it defeat. I’m going to graduate on time, and I’m not going to fail any classes. In my mind I have no other option. I’m just admitting that it’s really hard!

I feel sick all the time, my apartment is in a shambles, and I’m finding it nearly impossible to get to my early morning lecture classes. The fact that I work nights doesn’t help. So I figured I would try to motivate myself a little by writing myself a how to blog post.

All right Amber, here is your How to go to school, work, be pregnant, be a good wife, be perfect message!

  1. Saltines: eat them. I know you hate them. They have become the bane of your existence. That dry mouthed salty, cracker feeling might just make you throw up rather than prevent it, but you’ve got to try! For the sake of the baby, just try.
  2. Sleep: get it. Sure you don’t get off work until after midnight most nights, and sleeping on your back and stomach (the two preferred sleeping spots) is now either off limits or very painful, but sleep has got to be possible. The fact that you are exhausted all the time whether you get eight hours or not shouldn’t be considered. It’s time to start scheduling brief naps, and going to bed at a reasonable hour whenever possible.
  3. Wake up: when the alarm goes off. You have a choice, you have will. The bed is not swallowing you whole. You can refuse to stay in bed. You can get up! You can conquer!
  4. Eat: healthy balanced meals. All of the popular pregnancy sites tell you that eating healthy will help you feel less exhausted, less sick, less awful. If you can eat without throwing up, then do it! Say no to the empty corn dog, nacho, potato chip calories and start saying yes to a variety of fruits, vegetables, whole grains, and dairy. Maybe it will work. I kinda doubt it.
  5. Pray: for motivation. You had it before you got pregnant. It can’t have just completely disappeared like that! It defies the laws of nature. One minute it’s there, the next it’s not! Dig Deep Amber! Find the motivation to attend class, clean, do laundry, do anything but sleep.

*Deep Sigh*

I’m ruminating on my list… trying to let it sink in and cause some kind of change in me. Perhaps, I should just acknowledge that I don’t have to get a 4.0, I don’t have to have a perfect apartment, and just maybe my best effort is good enough.

Here’s to all the pregnant students out there. I feel your pain!